Ahhh. Back to blogging.
I apologize to all of you for my absence from writing. I've been taking some time to really allow myself to adjust to being superwoman, and it's finally all settling, sinking and kicking in.
Since Conner was born, I felt like my life was essentially turned upside down. I was making it through the day, but not in any sort of routine with any rhyme or reason. I've pretty much felt like I was living my life, but not exactly fully present. Being a mom totally throws you through a major loop!
Recently though, things have begun to click. I'm blaming this partially (or mostly) on my amazing friends who've filled in the gaping hole that is the lack of family I've got, being 3,000 miles from family. My friends have been the glue to hold me together (besides my husband of course...but sometimes you really, really need good girl friends). They've been the ones to help me get my groove back, and for that I am grateful.
Part of my out of whackiness has been body-related. Having Conner totally killed any self esteem I had about my body. With ruthless stretchmarks and things just not...hanging, if you will...like they used to, it's taken a lot to get used to my new body. But lately, I've found my niche. My key to better self esteem. My pick me up, my jump start, my "hey, this feels better". ZUMBA. Seriously. I love it. And it helps that I get to go to classes with some of my best friends who are encouraging and wonderful.
I've only been at it for about 2 weeks now, but I can already see and feel a difference in myself and it's awesome. Better yet, I'm finally out of the maternity jeans! Over the weekend I purchased 2 pairs of pre-pregnancy sized jeans...and they're even a little big! What a great feeling...what new perspective. Finding my niche is helping me feel great...and apparently look better.
So to those who can relate, I encourage you to do this: try eveything until you love something. There is a niche out there for everyone, and it can make you feel great!