Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Breastfeeding Chronicles...The Second Time Around

Guess what? I'm patting my own back today. 


Because I've met my first breastfeeding goal: 12 weeks of exclusive breastfeeding.

And that's completely rad.

Breastfeeding with Conner was not so easy. We had a rough start in the NICU, post C-section, with both of us on antibiotics and taking a few days to discover that he had a high arch in his palette making a latch difficult. And with a C-section recovery, a lack of sleep and the baby blues, formula supplementation happened...and then we flew home for Christmas. And holiday weaning happened. And even though when we came back I battled to up my supply, it was too late, and at 12 weeks our breastfeeding journey came to a sad and disappointing end.

It only added to my guilt about his birth. And so when I found out Jackson was coming, I vowed to do better.

And I have.

I fought another C-section recovery, mostly alone in the hospital minus a few hours each day when Derek would bring Conner up to visit and help me shower and rest. I've battled bleeding nipples from another baby with a high arch, cluster feeding nights that made me cry, and found help and success from the use of a nipple shield. 

And here I am today, nursing as I write this, proud of my own perseverance. I am a determined momma. I learned better, I know better and I'm doing better for myself. This is right for me! And I'm so happy!

And you know, I could sit here and continue to feel awful that Jackson and I are much more successful at this than Conner and I were. But you know what? I did the best I could. And when we moved to formula, I still did the best I could. And he's a happy and healthy kid, and I'm so proud of that.

And so here I am, nursing my twelve week old little man, looking forward to my next goal of another 12 weeks of breastfeeding.

Here's to it!

And here's to you. No matter how to feed your babe. I support you!

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